What the heck

.. is happening to the Philippines?! Or wait. Should I say the people in it?! Well apparently, nadadamay ang name ng beloved country natin! The hostage taking shit was very.. very.. VERY SHAMEFUL!!!

To the Cantonese people.. who only wanted to have fun and be happy.. a vacation in the Philippines is all they ever wanted.. My poor poor cantonese people. In behalf of the epic fail my countrymen gave you.. I wanted to apologize.. Nahihiya ako. Sorry!..

Dear Philippines..

You are sick. Very very sick. GET WELL SOON, my dearest country..

If only there was something I can do to help you change for the better.

Dear Lord..

Can I please be superwoman? Even just for a day? The world needs change. I think the world needs me.

I.AM.NINOY.

I.AM.CORY.

I.AM.EUNICE.

Run the Show

HELLO WORLD. I'm dedicating this entry to a very special person in my life. :) I want every people who reads this blog to meet my greatest inspiration (next to the Philippine Allstars) in dancing. GIO GAHOL. :) I met him last summer of 2010. He is now my dance coach at ADS. I like all of his choreographies. 'Coz he teaches not only dancing, but something deeper. He was the person who made me fall inlove with Jazzfunk. And he's one of the nicest person I've ever met. Here is one of his choreography. Taken just this day. August 14,2010. :)

(excuse the video's bad quality. i forgot to bring my camera. so apparently i had to use my laptop's bulok webcam instead. sorryy! :D)

So yea. It's his birthday tomorrow! :) I won't be able to see him tomorrow. So I bought him a box of brownies as a birthday gift. I came to the studio a little early. Gio was there. And greeted me with a "Wow. May sakit ka ba?" And yeah.. For some reason I thought I was sick. Because sually, okayy.. Not usually. But ALWAYS! Haha! I always come to the studio late. Usually, 30 minutes late. Sometimes, 45 minutes late. Hahaha! I was always late like sheeshh! So yeahh talagang nagulat talaga siya kanina. I said, "Wala akong sakit, baliw. HAPPY 'ALMOST-BIRTHDAY' GIO!" He then thanked me and. Damn. His sweet smile was just enough. :) Just look at that smile above. Isn't that just the sweetest thing on earth? :)

I love you and I love dancing with you. and I won't stop..

I will dance. With you. ♥

As long as I can.. Until my body wouldn't let me.. :)

I PROMISE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIO! :)

Close the wallet..

.. and my ATM.

Damnit. I'm so broke right now. :(

Everytime I try my hardest to NOT spend.. I FAIL. x(

Few days.. I save money.. But ALWAYS end up wasting it

on the most USELESS stuff possible.

One time..

I tried saving spare changes and coins via coin bank. I make sure the lids are very tight that it can't be opened.

But gaahd! :| It still won't work. I'll end up getting and making sungkit the coins by poking the coin bank hole with something flat like a cutter, a ruler, or a random piece of thick paper.

CRAP.

Aaaahhhh!!!! HELP! :|

The girl in my mirror..

Hello, world! Goodmorning Philippines! :)

Okayyy. So today, I'll be posting a poem I made myself. :)

"Death Note".

Apparently, a product of boredom + insomnia.

It feels good to finish this poem.

It's been a long time since I last wrote and finished one..

3 years ago, I think :)

Enjoy! :)

i once saw this girl.. she was staring blankly at the mirror..
then she walked into the bathroom and locked the door..
i barely recognized her face, and i dont know what she's doing
*tik tok tik tok*.. the clock told me. it was 3:43 in the morning.

i heard this noise from the bathroom she was in..
i heard nothing but her, and her painful cursing and crying
i heard the mirror glass slowly breaking
and then i heard no more, silence was conquering..

i heard this dropping sound on the floor..
she screamed and shouted, "i can't take this anymore!!!"
i wish i could save her, but there was nothing i can do..
black was everywhere.. the next thing i knew..

she opened her eyes, things were unclear and blurry..
she heard the voice of her mommy and daddy
she wanted to speak, but they cant seem to hear..
she wanted to shout, but all that's inside her is fear..

she woke up and realized she was on the hospital bed..
and then her blurry vision saw a lady in white and said
"honey you slashed your wrist and hit your head on the ground..
blood was all over you, when you were found."

she rested.. and rested.. and gave herself a break.
she realized that the problem she thought she can never take..
..can never be solved by the smiles she fake..
she got well, just a few days after, and never made the same mistake..

few years passed.. now, everything's just a scary memory.
she became happy, and the world gave her clarity..
but everytime i look in the mirror, i see..
the very same girl i saw.. at 3:43..

OLD..

Hi world. Looky! This is a shot of me way backk (2 years ago, I believe). Just look at me..

I know right. Like what the crap happened to my face now. XD Haha. Just playing.

But like yeahh.. I'm missing this.. Not the very nice straight hair.. or the strong look on her face.. and the fierce poses she projects.. Actually, not really the "her" that I miss, but the person I thought she was..

Hello Eunice. Nasan ka na? :

I don't know..

Hi world. It's been a while since I've posted something here..

"How are you?" - A question I frequently ask everyone.

But come to think of it. It's a question I never ask myself.

My life lately has been hella stressful. Nagugulat ako sa mga nangyayari.

Seems like I'm so surprised. Why? Have I forgotten to get in touch with myself?

My life has been a roller-coaster ride full of Mystery.

Confusions.

Blur.

Ups and downs.

Twists and turns.

No one can really understand what I'm feeling right now.

I'm in a state wherein I myself doesn't know what's happening to me. Around me.

Sometimes I think.. "Do you still know who you are??"

I don't even know who I am anymore. :(

I am dealing with a lot of serious stuff. I think I'm being too busy stressing myself out..

The point comes that I forgot that I for one have myself to take care of.

Why am I so harsh on myself?

I'm pushing myself wayy too far.

But why? Did I just forgot that the only person who can understand me.. is gonna be nobody else.. but myself ?

I think I need a break.

So I'm gonna sleep now. And leave this question in my head.

"Eunice, kaya mo pa ba?? :|"

KAKAYANIN KO.

10-1.

TEN Random Things About Me:
10. I can't really focus on stuffs for atleast 2 minutes.
09. I have this habit of staring weirdly at people.
08. Right eyebrow's always raised.
07. I don't speak clearly.
06. Haven't taken a bath yet. (It's 6:29) HAHA.
05. Lead majorette way back in HS. :)
04. I dye and cut my own hair.
03. Scaredy cat.
02. I like to bite the foreskin around my nails.
01. Nature's calling me. HAHA XD

NINE Places I’ve Visited:
09. Mindoro.
08. Boracay.
07. Hongkong.
06. Macau.
05. Australia.
04. Batanggas.
03. -
02. -
01. -

EIGHT Things I want to do before I die:
08. Write a book.
07. Go to New York and make my own "Empire State of Mind" video.
06. Marry.
05. Have kids.
04. Round trip around the world.
03. Sing for Oprah or Ellen Degeneres.
02. Kiss Zac Efron.
01. Hold his hand.

SEVEN Ways to win my heart:
07. Give me chocolates.
06. Tattoo my face or name on yo ass. :P
05. Dance with me.
04. Play with pre-schoolers.
03. Give me everything I want.
02. Kiss me everyday.
01. Love me and never leave me.

SIX Things I believe in:
06. Love.
05. Strength.
04. Dancing abilities.
03. Hope.
02. Peace on earth.
01. I won't stop dancing.

FIVE Things I’m afraid of:
05. Dying in pain.
04. Loved one in state of 50-50.
03. Losing a family member.
02. Not being able to dance anymore.
01. Losing my singing voice.

FOUR of my Favorite Items in my bedroom:
04. My bed.
03. My laptop.
02. Mini fridge.
01. TV. Aircon.

THREE Things I do everyday:
03. Take a bath.
02. Dance.
01. Eat.

TWO Things I am trying not to do right now:
02. Kill someone.
01. Steal money.

ONE Person I need to see right now:
01. Let me keep that to myself :(

A survey on a blog. Great! XD

2. Last time you consumed alcohol?
Kevin's birthday party. I was drunk like fuck, man. :-j

3. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Snoring asleep.

4. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Reading Tita Tzy's blog. :)

5. Are you currently reading a book?
How could I read a book if I'm answering this one right now?

6. How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Alfon? Haha. He's really sweet. And nice :)

7. Have you ever been around someone who was high?
High on what? =))

8. Do you like your life as of now?
Not really..

9. Last thing you purchased?
Mango shake :P

10. Have you ever drank with your number one?
Whuuuut?

11. Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
I'm here lying on the sofa. I'm such a couch potato. I'm lovin this seat. My ass won't let me stand up and take a shower. =)) (Note that it's 5:57PM) HAHAHA!

12. Three words to explain why you last threw up?
I was drunk.

13. How’s your heart lately?
Stronger.

14. Where did your last hug take place, and when?
ADS. I hugged everybody before I left. But I hugged daddy Switch last. :) Uhh. Last Tuesday :) June 8, 2010. :)

15. Who was the last person to hold your hand?
I can't remember?

16. Do you think you’re a good person?
Yea. I try to be, atleast.

17. Do you care about the environment?
Yes. Ofcourse.

18. Are you a jealous person?
Hahahaha! -_____-

19. Did you have a good birthday this year?
Havent had my birthday yet. 3 more months!!! :)

20. Are you tired right now?
Yes, physically, I am. My body hurts aches like crap. And emotionally, yes. I'm just freakin tired of crying and sobbing all the time. I want to change that. I'm so weak. -_____-

21. What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
Everybody's Entitled with an opinion. But I'd rather keep mine about that to myself. I might hurt people.

22. Do you chew on your straws?
Haha. Yes. I can't chew zesto straws tho. I have open bite e. :

23. Have you ever been called a tease?
Uhhhhhh.

25. Do you bite your nails?
Yes and I also bite the foreskin around my nails. HAHA!

26. Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
As if.

27. Do you have curly hair?
No. My hair is super straight. I had it curled a year ago tho.

28. Who was at your house last night?
Just us family.

29. What kind of car do you want?
JEEP XD

30. Whats your favorite sound?
The sound of the rain.. Trees when it's windy. Laughter. My voice. :P Dancing music. His voice. And the sound facebook chat makes when he PMs me. :)

31. Does your myspace song have any meaning behind it?
Haven't opened my account in Myspace for a year already.

32. Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them and meant it?
Ofcourse. How bout this. "Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them and NOT meant it?".

33. Is there anyone who doesnt like you because of something you didnt even do?
Probably. But I don't fuckin know and I don't fuckin care.

34. As of today, do you like anyone?
A lot. :(

35. have you kissed anyone on the lips today?
Nahh.

36. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Noo.

37. Is your sister a slut?
I am. =))

38. Last person you cried over?
I do that to alot of people. So I really can't remember. XD

39. Do you cry easily?
No. (And that is sarcastic) HAHAHA!!!

PAPARAZZI ♥

All those memories.. the will be lost in time, honey. Like tears in the rain.

Tears. Tears are the most painful words the broken heart cannot speak..

My lashes are dry. Purple teardrops I cry. It don't have a price. Loving you is cherry pie.

Bring on the rain. Listen to the thunder.

I love the rain. ♥ It puts me into peace. It calms me. I love the sound of it. The sound of each raindrop.. hitting the floor. Pouring. Dripping unto my window. I love the rain. It refreshes me. The rain is a very romantic form of percipitation. I love the rain. And the thunder and dark rolling clouds that goes with it. I love the way the air feels and smells and the way the sky looks before, during and after the rainfall. I love the rain. I love the gloomy, contemplative mood the rain brings. The rain is incredible. I love the rain. I love it. ♥

-- euni(c)e somintac

Take my hand.. Take a breath.. Pull me close.. And take one step. Keep your eyes, locked to mine.. And let the music.. be our guide.

Won't you promise me? That you'll never forget. To keep dancing wherever we go next.

It's like catching lightning.. The chances of finding someone like you. It's one in a million.. The chances of feeling the way we do..

And with every step together. We just keep on getting better.. So, can I have this dance?

Take my hand.. I'll take the lead.. And every turn will be safe with me. Don't be afraid, afraid to fall.. You know I'll catch you through it all. Even a thousand miles.. can't keep us apart.. Coz my heart is WHERE EVER YOU ARE. ♥ No mountains too high enough.. Oceans too wide.. Coz together or not.. Our dance won't stop. Let it rain! Let it pour! What we have is worth fighting for. You know I believe.. We were meant to be.. Yeaaaahhh.. :)

Fallin' for you?

I don't know but I think I may be falling for you. Droppin so quickly. Maybe I should.. keep this to myself.. Waiting til I know you better. I am tryin. Not to tell you. But I want to. Im scared of what you'll say. So I'm hiding.. What I'm feeling.. But I'm tired of holding this inside my head.

I've been spending all my time just thinkin bout you. I don't know what to do. I think I'm fallin for you. I've been waiting all my life and now I found you.. I don't know what to do. I think I'm fallin for you..

Oh I just can't take it.

My heart is racing.

Emotions keep spillin out.

In the most dumbest way!

Yeah. I think I'm fallin for you..

"What are you doing?"

"Oh you know.. Spinning counter clockwise. Each turn robs the planet of angular momentum.. Slowing it's spin in the tiniest bit. Lengthening the night. Pushing back the dawn..

..Giving me a little more time.. Here with you.."

Time's running out. Take her hand now. Fulfil her dreams.

♥

Can't you notice? Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. What?! Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? Daddy’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and Mom was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings.. Race issues were about who ran the fastest.. War was only a card game.. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine, and wearing a skirt wouldnt make you a slut? The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? And we couldn’t wait to grow up? C'mon now.. Hm. What the heck is happening? :

My Happy Pill :)

Everytime I'm sad, down, depressed. or just full of BV.. Here's one thing that makes me go awwww. :) Lookie! Sooooo adorable. :) Heehee. Sooo cutee! I wanna pinch em cheeks til they bleed! :3 Haha. This picture is my happy pill. One glimpse of this picture = One genuine smile on my face. Staring at it would make me laugh. :)) Haha. I hope he doesnt see this. -___- Or I'd be in trouble. :P But like yeah, really. This picture makes me happy :) Hi Justin! Please don't get mad. -___- Heehee. ;;)

R.I.P PARIS. :(

AUG 2007 - MAY 2010.

Thanks for cheering me up when I have no one.I'll never forget you, Paris. You are the BEST.Stay with me forever. You're not just a pet.But a very loyal friend. Even if I don't see you most of the time, you still kiss me and play with me when you see me. :( Thank you cousins for taking good care of her.Sorry if I was not the best mommy to you baby. It still hurts me everytime I see your dogfood plate. :'( I still remember how you bark when you want me to play with you. Every dog I see, reminds me of you. But you will always be my favorite Paris. You are my favorite. You have been a very good girl. Thanks for making me very very happy. :( I love you. May you rest in peace.

I'll never forget this trip. Thankyou Mom and Dad for making this trip possible. This was the best magical day of my life. I know it sounds childish or somethin but I really felt like a princess ♥ Heehee. My jaw dropped the moment the fireworks started. (There is every night) Very very nice. I don't know why but this actually brought me into tears. I didnt let mom and dad see it though. That'd be embarrasing. Heehee -___- So yea here's a glimpse of how magical Disneyland is. Never miss this chance if ever you're goin to HK. I've been dreaming to go to Disneyland since forever. The moment I stepped on the disneyland floor, I still can't believe it. This Disneyland trip actually completed the inner princess I have been missing since I was 6. ♥ :)

A whole new world ♥

Dancing for me was stepping at daddy's foot and we'd be waltzing around the living room.. Mommy would let me sit on her lap and rock me on a rocking chair to sleep.. Goodbye's meant "I'll see you guys tomorrow!".. Candies used to give a smile on my face.. I nag every time I miss an episode of "Rugrats".. I just miss those times.. The times. Picking colors was the mos hardest decision I have to make. I couldntt pick cause I like all those colors. The most hardest thing for me to do was to tie my shoelaces.. The times when everything isn't this complicated yet.. School was fun. Like playing in the playground .. I didn't have to worry about anything.. Things used to be very very simple.. and beautiful. EVERYTHING WAS JUST BEFORE.. I miss being a kid. Specially the times, I always cry because of booboo's on my knees. Not because of a broken heart :( I miss that. I really do.

The Best Girl Next To My Mom ♥

MERYL ESTHER JAMORABO GALANG. Hi world! Meet my BEST GIRLFRIEND ♥

She has been there for me since forever. She was always there for me everytime I needed her. Knows me very well among anyone esle. We've been through alot of shits but shits made our friendship unbreakable. Always knew the right thing to say. Cheered me up when I was down and weary. Always there to make me happy. I couldnt ask for more. Not the perfect girl, but she definitely is the perfect friend. Always together at school. We always skip Social Studies class to go downstairs and buy kwek-kwek. Talkin to her just made me feel secured. She always has my back and I always got hers. She shares almost everything she keeps and trusts me with things she can't entrust with anyone else. She knows my deepest darkest secrets and knows the most private things about my life. I can always talk to her about anything including the most random, crazy, unpredictable stuff we could think of! She's also my mall buddy, my fashion buddy, everything I do, I can do it with her. We share the same passion and love for singing. We have the same hobbies and interests and the like. She's the most flexible person I know. And I don't know how life would be if I've never met this retard ;)

"I was scared.. Unprepared.. Lost in the dark, falling apart. But I can survive with you by my side.. We're gonna be alright. This is what happens when two different worlds.. collide.."

I soo love you Meng! Thanks for being there. Everytime I feel the world despises me, you were always there to prove me wrong. You're the best buddy, the best companion, the best listener, but most importantly, THE BEST FRIEND :)

I'd leave any dance trainings for you anytime! That's how I love you :)

I need to think.

NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO FIND MY SUMMER LOVE IN YOU. BUT HEY, I LOVE DANCING NOW. MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE..



This has been the best. I will never ever forget.

SUMMER LOVE 2010 ♥